This really surprised me. I decided last night that I needed a little treat, so stopped at a little gourmet grocery shop on the way home from work. I was hoping to find some cool diet root beer or other diet soda to sip during the evening (even though I'm trying to redirect most of my wine-sipping to selzer water). I went in, walked through their extensive wine section to reach the aisle with the soda. I found and purchased some great root beer, bought it, came home, poured out a glass on ice, stuck a straw in it, and enjoyed the cool deliciousness.
It wasn't 'til then, sitting at the kitchen table, that I realized I hadn't even considered buying wine. In that place where I have purchased many, many bottles of wine. It didn't even occur to me. This is astonishing.
But then I've also been thinking a lot about what I will do when I finish these 100 days. Moderation -as in, drink a glass or two of wine a few days a week- will definitely not work for me. Two glasses always become four or five. Yet to tell myself I will never ever taste wine again- well, that just sets up what seems a unrealistic goal against which I will need to rebel.
I am pretty sure I will never go back to drinking daily, or even weekly. But perhaps one Friday or Saturday night a month? Perhaps I will try this, and it will work fine. Or perhaps I will try it and find out that this ends up interfering with my quality of life on the following Saturday or Sunday? There's a part of me that thinks I will find out that, after all, even that much wine is not worth the trouble, and I'll limit myself to a glass of champagne on New Year's Eve (not this upcoming one, however, as it falls within my 100 days).
Most of the blogs I've read that talk about trying 'moderation' seem to end in relapse, out of which the person needs to reclimb. But unfortunately, there is little detail about what the 'moderation' consists of. I guess that I will see.
It wasn't 'til then, sitting at the kitchen table, that I realized I hadn't even considered buying wine. In that place where I have purchased many, many bottles of wine. It didn't even occur to me. This is astonishing.
But then I've also been thinking a lot about what I will do when I finish these 100 days. Moderation -as in, drink a glass or two of wine a few days a week- will definitely not work for me. Two glasses always become four or five. Yet to tell myself I will never ever taste wine again- well, that just sets up what seems a unrealistic goal against which I will need to rebel.
I am pretty sure I will never go back to drinking daily, or even weekly. But perhaps one Friday or Saturday night a month? Perhaps I will try this, and it will work fine. Or perhaps I will try it and find out that this ends up interfering with my quality of life on the following Saturday or Sunday? There's a part of me that thinks I will find out that, after all, even that much wine is not worth the trouble, and I'll limit myself to a glass of champagne on New Year's Eve (not this upcoming one, however, as it falls within my 100 days).
Most of the blogs I've read that talk about trying 'moderation' seem to end in relapse, out of which the person needs to reclimb. But unfortunately, there is little detail about what the 'moderation' consists of. I guess that I will see.
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ReplyDeleteOops didn't actually mean to remove my comment. Techno-spaz I am. What I've read of your blog seems helpful & uplifting and I'll continue reading it and looking towards getting myself sober and appreciating life a little more! Good luck for the next 85 days! x
ReplyDeleteThank you! :)
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