Tonight I am feeling a bit blah- not major down or upset or anything, just a bit blah. In the past I would have jumped away from feeling this feeling and into a bottle of wine. I was so uncomfortable with any emotion, so scared of my emotions, that alcoholic 'anesthesia' was the only way I felt I could deal with them.
Tonight, I sat with this feeling. I ate some dinner, finished up some paperwork, went to my Pilates class. And sure enough, I am feeling more normal, more engaged with the world again. The somewhat staggering realization for me: Emotions ebb and flow, come and go. I won't get stuck in an emotion, and the emotions won't hurt me. They are what I am feeling, but they are not me.
This is a very different way of living for me. I like it.
Tonight, I sat with this feeling. I ate some dinner, finished up some paperwork, went to my Pilates class. And sure enough, I am feeling more normal, more engaged with the world again. The somewhat staggering realization for me: Emotions ebb and flow, come and go. I won't get stuck in an emotion, and the emotions won't hurt me. They are what I am feeling, but they are not me.
This is a very different way of living for me. I like it.
I have the Blahs today. Definitely need to learn how to accept emotions as they are without trying to alter them .
ReplyDeleteHere is an interesting take on Vulnerability
http://www.ted.com/talks/brene_brown_on_vulnerability.html