Last night was the third time I've had a dream where I casually drank wine in a social setting, then remembered I was doing the 100 day challenge, and was very very upset in the dream. And very relieved to wake up and find it was a dream.
How I interpret this: Something deep in my psyche has become totally invested in this sobriety challenge I undertook so casually. I think that means my true self is cheering in the background, loving what is happening to my body and my mind as I wean myself from years of using a substance as a substitute for being authentically alive.
Wow!
I had my first one of these recently and it is very weird waking to guilt about drinking that you thought you'd done and then like you say the relief is huge that you haven't. I never thought I'd hear myself say that! Congrats on 86 days! :)
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