What is relapse? What is sobriety? What is alcohol moderation? I guess it depends on who you ask.
Relapse according to Google: A deterioration in health after a temporary improvement, a resumption of addictive behaviors after a period of abstinence, the return to drug use after a drug-free period.
For myself, I'm going to take 'resumption of addictive behaviors', and in drinking compulsively. NOT, as in having a glass of wine now and then. NOT even, having a lot of alcohol very occasionally. And I will see how this plays out. And I will continue to post about my experiences even after I hit day #100, even if, by my definition, I find myself falling into a relapse.
Sobriety per Google: Not having any measurable levels or observable effects of mood-altering drugs. Moderation in or abstinence from alcoholic liquor. Temperance or moderation, especially in respect to alcoholic beverages. Others point out that just abstaining from drinking alcohol does not equal sobriety, that sobriety also means successfully dealing with the emotions and problems that alcohol permitted us to avoid.
So I guess I need to wait a while, experience a bit more, before I decide exactly what my personal definition of sobriety is. I have spent much time and effort looking at and delving into the problems alcohol allowed me to put on hold. As well as abstaining from alcohol. I shall see.
And moderation? Two standard alcoholic drinks for women and four for men, with one to two alcohol free days per week. Or half that, depending on who you read. For me personally (the one with off-switch problems, remember), I can't imagine that a future moderations could actually include 5 or 6 days a week of drinking alcohol. Maybe the flip of that, one to two days a week.
As I hit 100 days, another time of experimentation and learning is about to begin.