Hitting this landmark number is amazing to me. Finding that calm and no-drama are very satisfying is amazing. Finding that a great night's sleep and waking up energized beats the pseudo-relaxation of evening alcohol is amazing. Finding that non-drinking isn't the hell-hole I imagined it to be is amazing.
And so my thoughts turn to: "Really, Carrie, this is something you should have done ages ago. Why didn't you stop drinking excessively 10 years ago? Or at least 5 years ago? Or, come on, at the very least you could have done this 2 years ago".
And this is Wolfie in a crafty disguise. Trying to turn the good (sobriety) into something bad and anxiety-producing (What if-ing about timing). The little sneak!
Once I caught on to his little scheme, I talked myself around it.
Yo, Carrie, good job!! It took waiting until you were strong enough to quit drinking, but now you ARE strong enough. And the support from your family is incredible! And the online sober blogging-community? How nourishing it is to see that you are not the only one struggling, that you weren't chosen out of all humanity to be the worst of the very very bad. And how valuable their encouragement is! Yup, you've learned a whole lot, and this was just the right time for you to take this giant step forward.
So There, you little creep!!