Today my life is calm. Approaching the end of this initial 100-day challenge seems surreal. But my days - when not traveling- are developing an evening routine of happy stuff to replace my old drinking habit. Travel is still challenging, as far as not drinking any alcohol.
I think that once I hit 100 days, I will start counting in months. All of November and December 2013, now most of January 2014. I've been thinking about this a lot, since I know the AA approach to counting is definatively black and white. If you have been sober for 20 years, for example, and have a sip of wine? You are back to counting from day 1 again. This absolutism does not fit into my world.
So how will I count once I have the initial 100 days under my belt? How will I count when I do my planned experimentation with how drinking wine seems to me after this hiatus? I could do number of months, allowing up to 2 evening- or 1 or 3- of wine a month and still counting this as sobriety. Or, I could do number of months, minus the number of days of wine? Or it may be that I decide to be a never-ever person, as in, the taste and experience of wine are not worth the havoc in my body and head?
I am certain I will never be a daily drinker again. And, I need to experiment with how this time with no-drinking has affected my Off Switch, if at all. If, as I suspect, I still have trouble saying no after that first glass of wine- then I will very seldom be drinking. But, to preserve my sanity (and commitment to sobriety) I must allow the possibility of having wine now and then.
As a very competitive person, numbers, achievements and setting goals are really important for me, both for motivation and for satisfaction in what I have accomplished. . I'm just not sure how to count after these 100 days.
How are you counting? Or do you count? What advice do you have for me?