Like many people, I've always had sort of an uneasy relationship with time. I have this Endless To-Do list, and seem to have an underlying magical hope that time will expand to accommodate my needs. When, strangely enough, this doesn't happen- I end up frustrated and mad at myself.
And, I am an introvert. At work, I function very well as an extrovert- but I definitely need time alone to recharge (as opposed to DH, who draws energy from parties and social functions). And especially 'making time'- quilts with my sewing machine, and glass beads using my torch and kiln. None of these items travel well.
I have been out of town for most of the past two weekends, and will be gone for the entire weekend the next two weekends. Since I really cherish my weekends at home, my 'nesting' and 'making' time- this is very hard for me. Time seems to shrink, giving me barely enough time for necessary activities of daily living- and packing, and unpacking, and packing...
Usually this kind of a time stack would have me grabbing and gulping glasses and glasses of wine the I 'deserved' because of the stressful situation. And then (serendipitously? Coincidentally?) I read Sober Mom Write's post yesterday. All about taking care of oneself, making life as stress-free as possible. Having only One Job: staying sober.
And my Poor-Me-I-Need-Wine status started to crumble. I started really thinking about what I could NOT do, what tasks and obligations I could put off, reassign to someone else (even if this meant paying them to do so) or just plain not do. And about how I might 'treat' myself, add in some things that feed my soul even with this hectic schedule. The specifics of these actions will obviously vary from person to person- and my list is growing steadily.
I'm not sure whether not reading Sober Mom Write's post would have led me to give in to that calling of wine, but I do know that reading this post had a profound impact on how I am planning my support for the next weeks.
Self Care, I guess, is a major component of successful abstinence!