Night before last: I was touring a city- possibly Paris, or Luxembourg-walking around by myself, thoroughly enjoying my explorations. I was carrying a small glass- shot glass size- of Grand Marnier (which IS my favorite liqueur) and it was very important to keep stopping places to have it refilled. In this dream, I had no awareness of participating in the Challenge, and no guilty or shameful feelings about drinking, I was just enjoying it. Although actually, now that I consider it again, perhaps there was a little sort-of-gleeful feeling about semi-sneaking around with this alcohol, knowing that I was outside the norms of behaviour, a little feeling of defiance or rebellion.
Last night: I was aware of this challenge and just where I am in real life. I had 'accidentally' drunk two glasses of wine. I was at that stage of "Oh, screw, I'll just drink until I fall asleep, that sounds so delicious". And yet, I was pausing there, actually weighing the pros and cons of continuing to drink. I think I was leaning toward not drinking more. And I was also very aware that whatever I decided, I was going to lie to myself and everyone else about having 'slipped'.
When I awoke, I'm not sure which bothered me more, having consumed wine while intending not to, or intending to lie about having consumed wine.
So my subconscious appears quite interested in discussing drinking/not drinking with me. And probably has some pointers/meanings for me- if I were clever enough to decipher them.