Apparently this is another myth about alcohol I constructed for myself: I am a nervous flier who MUST have at least 2 glasses of wine prior to boarding a plane. Since October, I have been NOT drinking before flying. I guess this must be, oh, about 2 dozen flights since then.
Amazingly, it's OK. I have my magazines or work to do, and read or work. I still hope for nobody in the middle seat. I still get impatient with how slow people are disembarking. But even the turbulence that used to send me into a frenzy of What-Ifs is no longer bothersome. I really think this is a myth I made to justify drinking, rather than a genuine deeply-embedded anxiety.
I also had the convenient back-story of "Everybody gets nervous flying so almost everyone drinks on a plane". Actual observation: Few people drink alcoholic beverages on a plane. Who knew? (not me, apparently!).
It feels so freeing to populate my world with stories based on actual observations, rather than 'observations' through that contorting lens of the bottom of a wine bottle!!