Yesterday was tough for me- which took me totally by surprise. Perhaps it is the letdown of the holidays being over? Or the gloomy low-sunshine weather?
Anyway, everything felt flat and boring yesterday. As least half a dozen times I caught the thought- Why don't I go get a nice bottle of wine for the evening? As though that would relieve the boredom, add some excitement and meaning to my existence. But Wolfie did not get the better of me!
I gritted my teeth, drank some diet ginger ale, ate a bit, read another magazine, played candy crush, more ginger ale- and went to bed early. Today seems better.
These Sneak Attacks are hard, and take a ton of energy to power through! But I keep comforting myself with imagined pictures of those new non-drinking neural pathways being laid down, making the next time easier, and the one after that, easier still! I hope! :)
Anyway, everything felt flat and boring yesterday. As least half a dozen times I caught the thought- Why don't I go get a nice bottle of wine for the evening? As though that would relieve the boredom, add some excitement and meaning to my existence. But Wolfie did not get the better of me!
I gritted my teeth, drank some diet ginger ale, ate a bit, read another magazine, played candy crush, more ginger ale- and went to bed early. Today seems better.
These Sneak Attacks are hard, and take a ton of energy to power through! But I keep comforting myself with imagined pictures of those new non-drinking neural pathways being laid down, making the next time easier, and the one after that, easier still! I hope! :)
