tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2370806816189738825.post6882418313509871948..comments2023-05-15T03:41:26.209-07:00Comments on It's different now: Sober Day #69- A Bit DifficultAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321547766936093369noreply@blogger.comBlogger6125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2370806816189738825.post-83905294403732572932014-01-08T03:36:24.145-08:002014-01-08T03:36:24.145-08:00These seemingly endless cold blah days may certain...These seemingly endless cold blah days may certainly be a component. If so, they should improve tomorrow as I head to Miami for a meeting this weekend- here's hoping! And sleep definitely helps!!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02321547766936093369noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2370806816189738825.post-80725121758460435992014-01-07T11:26:42.402-08:002014-01-07T11:26:42.402-08:00I wonder if it's the January blues? I felt ex...I wonder if it's the January blues? I felt exactly the same yesterday - tired and went to bed early too. Felt better today and hope you do too :)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2370806816189738825.post-23392254682946123212014-01-07T07:33:37.071-08:002014-01-07T07:33:37.071-08:00We are!! It's rather astounding to me, but her...We are!! It's rather astounding to me, but here I am, and here you are! Kudos to us!!!<br /><br />And I agree, there is trend toward the "Wolfie Attacks" being milder, not quite as compelling. It becomes easier to say: "Shut up and Go Away!!"Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02321547766936093369noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2370806816189738825.post-89377366210309510982014-01-07T05:56:31.204-08:002014-01-07T05:56:31.204-08:00The thoughts at 60+ days are different than the th...The thoughts at 60+ days are different than the thoughts during early sobriety, aren't they? Now I get more fleeting "Gee a glass of wine would be nice" rather than "My life sucks, I suck, everything sucks, why not just drink". Those pathways were really sick. <br /><br />Glad you powered thru to day 69! We're 2/3 there :)Gingerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08032255209884107019noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2370806816189738825.post-67107400227396160312014-01-07T05:36:05.147-08:002014-01-07T05:36:05.147-08:00I think I had a belief that I should never have to...I think I had a belief that I should never have to feel negative emotions- frustration, boredom, anger, etc. I believe on some level I was convinced that feeling these was dangerous, harmful to me. Which ties in a bit with that Victim Mentality: Poor me, I shouldn't have to endure these negative emotions. So my habit was to anesthetize away from these with wine. And now, sober, I am learning that I can sit through these emotions, feel them, and eventually they dissipate. Phew! (I need to get out my miniature neural jackhammers again and take out some more of those old default neural pathways!)Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02321547766936093369noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2370806816189738825.post-7668406742253578292014-01-06T23:02:03.888-08:002014-01-06T23:02:03.888-08:00It's interesting how the neural pathways are r...It's interesting how the neural pathways are repairing and changing, but we still have these default settings that reboot occasionally. I was baking bread today. It turned into a bit of a disaster, and without even knowing it had happened I found myself daydreaming about drinking a big cold glass of wine when I'd cleaned up the kitchen... I haven't had a drink for 14 months, but there it was, clear as day, an instant "solution" to a downer experience! But I didn't drink -- not even a failed wild yeast sourdough experiment could get me to drink now! Sue Kerrhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07569178603238739003noreply@blogger.com